IOnceWasLost

Feeling strange, All hopes left dangling on a string, Ready for change, Waiting for the exuberance it will bring. Obsessed with the unknown, Always pondering, contemplating, So detached, so alone, Lost in thought, subject to waiting. Waiting to be lifted, Completely dejected and broken down, So fucked up and twisted, Congruent to a grief-stricken clown. Spiraling into oblivion, Forsaken in this deep, vast void. No place for a romantic daydreamer like me, No place for my chaos and creativity, In this world so systematic and self-absorbed, In this world I will never truly be free.

Learning so much now, Of what's real and what's right, For this truth I will always fight. Sick of all these curtains over my eyes, Brought upon them by lies, Deceit all around me, deceit from within, So detailed and elaborate, so easy to believe in. Distracting me from my path, my purpose, From this for so long I've strayed, Lost in my fears waiting to be made, Still I have yet to break through the surface. Some one help me see it! Help me break through this dreary, grey film, That seams to be cast over my life. I am so close I can feel it, Festering up from within, Or is it my dream again? Learning so much now, At least I

You all entered bringing such lucent energy, Like an array of swirling colors materializing out of this vast void, Such as in a long-lived acid voyage, Sifting through the unbeknownst and unperceived, Initially I was dumbfounded and stunned. Yet in the deepest chambers of my heart, I grasped that you all were unique, you all were true, At long last I dropped my walls and defenses, I truly let others in and found some friends. Solitary and clustered, you all gathered near, Always there for falling tears and sad melodies, When the mind has grown weary, and the weight builds, Until the heart and body aches, Until we have no strength